Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Worthless Shower Shoes

I own a pair of shower shoes, better known as flip flops.  In the Army, we're encouraged to wear them in the showers because they're supposed to protect our feet.  Our feet need protection from infection and athlete's foot.  After all, you never know what you'll find at the bottom of an Afghan shower shared with many other dudes.

However, I wonder sometimes how much protection my shower shoes actually give.  When showering, the water fills the bottom of the shower. All the dirt, grime, and filthy water seeps in between the flip flops and my feet.

The truth is, my feet are so entrenched in the water, it makes no difference if I slip these flip flops on or not.  I'm fooling myself if I think they are making a difference.  It's like eating an entire pizza and drinking a diet coke. It's like holding an umbrella and walking through a monsoon.  It almost doesn't make sense.  It doesn't matter.

Should I dare say that it doesn't matter when you try to live a good Christian life? The world we navigate is filled with muck.  Attempting to do things to keep ourselves pure is futile.  Truthfully, to do this, we have to most certainly have God's help.  We forget that we have to admit our need to God.  God has to help was walk in purity.  God has to give us the strength to live holy lives.  God has to purify our hearts and minds.  That's why David asks God to "create in him a clean heart".  David knew that in order to live pure, God had to create it and sustain it.

Our weakness to live pure is no excuse to do whatever we want.  It should be a reminder that our fleshly actions aren't going to help.  It has to be God!  He can help us overcome the grime.  He can pull us out of the filth.  We just need to ask Him in faith.

Why talk about this?

Because as you already know....the definition of insanity is to do the same thing over and over again expecting to get different results.  We won't get different results when we try to fight through the fog ourselves.  God has to provide that light.  And we have to know that He alone is the only one.

Friday, October 17, 2014

My Happy Son

I truly believe God created my sense of humor even before I was born. I believe my humor and happiness is amplified by God's grace and hope instilled in me through Jesus Christ.

Today is my son's birthday. I love my little buddy.  He makes me happy.  God has created that same humor in him as He did me.  There's no doubt about it.  3 years ago, when he was born, my family was going through some dark days. The church had knocked us down and continued to kick us while down.  I almost lost a biblical view of the church, but God continually reigned me in.  I still love the church and strive to forgive as Christ does. 

During the dark days, God gave us a gift.  That gift was my son. He provided a bright light to navigate the darkness.  He was a source of joy when we endured days where it was scarce.  

There's no doubt that our little man was meant to bring sunshine on a cloudy day.  Even now, when I think of him as I am halfway across the world in a war zone, I can't help but smile.  He is still that bright light to me during dark days.  I praise God for that.  I praise God for the reminder that humor, laughter, and joy are meant to be a part of the believer's life.  It's how we distinguish ourselves from other in the murkiness of life.  It's how we highlight Christ's love.

My son, his humor, and his energy are a reminder of that fact for me.  Happy Birthday, little buddy.  I love you!

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

No Birthdays Alone

No one should have to be alone on their birthday. It just doesn't feel right. However, as the days ticked by this month, I sorta felt like this was sure to be my experience.

Whether we are excited about getting another year older or not, I still believe most of us could admit that our birthdays are nice because they make us feel special. People will go out of their way to tell you they appreciate you when on the other 364 days of the year, they may not.

Fortunately, God has blessed me tremendously. Even away in Afghanistan, I have felt the birthday love. My family showered me with packages, my co-workers gave me cards and treats, and of course I've received the typical barrage of Happy Birthday FB posts.

Add it up and it's a reminder that God doesn't intend for us to walk a lonely road. He desires that we love and serve each other! That's my focus as I grow another year older....to be the biggest fans of others and build them up so that they will be reminded that life is not supposed to be cold and lonely, but that a loving God desires we have joy in Him and His people.

Friday, September 12, 2014

My 7 Year Old Beauty

There's nothing that can prepare you for missing the moments that matter the most.  Today is the first birthday I have ever missed in my precious little girl's 7 years.  I'm truthfully distraught to miss it.  However, I am thankful for God's gift of Karis.  God has blessed us with a beautiful young girl who I fell in love with even before she was born.  She is extremely passionate, creative, funny, and displays her emotions so beautifully.  I love everything about her!
Even though I can't be physically present with her today, I am celebrating her life!  I love you, Karis.  Happy 7th Birthday!

Thursday, September 11, 2014

9-11 Mission Trip

It took me almost 13 years, but I'm finally on a 9/11 mission trip.  One thing about the Army is we never sleep.  Operations are going 24/7, 365 days a year, all in an effort to protect America and her freedoms.

I'm thankful the Army never sleeps.  I'm thankful the pursuit of those who smashed into our structures 13 years ago is a constant hunt.  We haven't stopped.

However, because we haven't stopped, families have been broken, war has worn down lives and souls, people have died, people have lost friends and family, and depression has ruined lives.

The need for Christ is enormous for our men and women in uniform and their families.  Many times, when a disaster strikes, the need to do mission work near that disaster is urgent and pursued.  However, what about years after the earthquake, tornado, hurricane, or flood. Who is ministering to the lives still wrecked and hurt?  Sadly, just months after a disaster, the help ceases.

I'm thankful God called me out of the bullpen late in the game to provide relief in this war on terror.  13 years ago, I would have never imagined being in Afghanistan closing the doors on this pursuit of those who brought tragedy to our nation on that fateful day.

However, I'm thankful He did.  It has taught me a valuable lesson.  That lesson is that people don't stop hurting just because we stop hurting.  A disaster will immediately call us to hurt with others for a brief time, because it's fresh.  But when time fades that disaster away in our minds, it still lingers for those who encountered it intimately.  We must always rejoice with those who rejoice and hurt with those who hurt.  In doing this, we elevate people's needs.  When we elevate their needs, that's when Christ gets displayed!

Happy Patriot Day!  Never forgot the fallen from 9/11 and all the war efforts that have followed.  Never forget their family, friends, and battle buddies.

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Soldier's Secrets

I see Soldier's secrets.  I know the awful things they have done.  I know some of the crazy thoughts they've had.  This comes with territory being a Chaplain.  My time downrange has been filled with more counseling than ever before.  It has also been met with the awkward challenge of making some Soldiers feel comfortable around me after they have unloaded the dark recesses of their heart.  They know that I do not disclose their secrets to anyone, but I sense a shame in some that they can't even look me in the eye anymore after they've unloaded what's on their chest.

Interestingly, I've run into a lot of my former Soldiers downrange too.  Many of them have greeted me happily with a smile.  However, some have lowered their head, fearing I'll recall the things they shared with me.

Honestly, when I see Soldiers I do see the things they've shared with me.  I see the awful circumstances they've been in. When I look around, I see Soldiers who have beaten their wives.  I've seen Soldiers who have attempted suicide.  I see Soldiers who have cheated on their spouses.  I see Soldiers who have thought about killing.  I see Soldiers who have been raped and abused.


I don't say all of that to say that the scars and baggage a Soldier carries is how I define them.  Christ doesn't define us that way.  He wipes the slate clean.  I see the baggage as a reminder that while everyone may walk around with a smile, the mission field is ripe with need!  Hurt, anxiety, pain, and fear sit steady in the lives of many of our men and women in combat.  The need for Christ is overwhelming.  

My heart desires to see these secrets as a part of God's success story. I believe every person carrying around past and present hurts can be healed from what ails them.  They can overcome their circumstances and come out stronger men and women.  This only happens through the presence of God in their lives.  I must be an agent of God's presence.

Truthfully, we all have secrets.  Everyone walking around you has former pains and scars.  Some have life-altering tragedies in their past.  As believers, if we can grasp that perspective in our daily walk, we can invite beautiful change in people's lives.

The Wonderful World of Bagram

In the last 3 months, I have now spent about a total of 2 weeks in Bagram, Afghanistan.  When people look back at this long war, no doubt Bagram will be a popular place of reference.  And it is easy to see why.  This place is a massive hub.  Its the equivalent of a big city as far as military operating bases go.  Its like the New York or L.A. of warzone Afghanistan.
However, the world of Bagram is an interesting one.  Quite honestly, it almost feels like you're not in a warzone while being in Bagram.  It feels almost like a large American Army post.  It feels like a vacation compared to the other places I've lived and been during the last 3 months. 
Soon, I'll be on my way to a new location, more remote and more conventional military war post.  However, in reflecting on my time in the fabulous Bagram, I compiled a list of things I have learned in this interesting place.
1. PEOPLE HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO WALK IN PUBLIC:  Perhaps I've noticed this because Bagram is huge and there are so many people here, but I honestly feel like I need to teach a class on how to properly walk in a public setting.  You've got the "I own the sidewalk and will walk in the middle of it no matter how many other people are trying to also walk on the same sidewalk" people.  You've got the people who stop walking to stare or chat, creating a massive blockade in busy doorways and pedestrian intersections.  Then you've got the people who are just plain oblivious while opening doors or walking around corners, not thinking that someone else may be coming.
2. THE CZECHS CAN WORKOUT WITH THE BEST OF THEM AND THOSE BUBBAS CAN PUT AWAY SOME FOOD:  There are a lot of Czech military at Bagram.  Sharing the gym with them, I've witnessed their rigid workout routines.  Sharing dinner tables with them, I've seen these dudes hammer DFAC trays full of fried chicken, pizza, french fries, corn dogs, and salad.
3.  THE ROUND THINGS IN THE PORTA POTTIES ARE NOT MINTS:  Not that I put one of those things in my mouth, but the first time I saw these tiny peppermint looking discs in the urinal piece of a Bagram porta john, I almost thought someone had spit out their candy.  Turns out its just air freshener. 
4.  BAGRAM HAS A "DISNEY" SIDE.  HOWEVER, THE ONLY THING IT HAS IN COMMON WITH THE REAL DISNEY IS THAT IT IS OVERCROWDED:  Bagram has a Disney Drive.  On Disney Drive are shops, restaurants, coffee, movie theaters, and gyms.  Its not too shabby.  However, you'll wear your arm out saluting and returning salutes.  The amount of people on this strip is ridiculous!
5.  THE RUSSIAN ENGINEERS WERE EFFICIENT, BUT AT THE SAME TIME IMPRACTICAL:  One of the interesting things about many places in Afghanistan is seeing all the Russian military evidence from their conflicts with the Afghans spanning over the past 30 plus years.  The Russians built some crazy structures, many of which still linger like remains of an ancient city.  Those dudes built buildings literally out of the rocks on the ground.  Cost efficient, but not efficient when it comes to manning or retrograding these beasts.
6. JOGGING AROUND BAGRAM FEELS LIKE YOU'RE JOGGING IN A HIGH SECURITY PRISON:  Its been interesting getting up at 5:45, going out for my nice leisurely jogs, and getting to take in scenery that includes tall fences lined with wire, guard towers manned with guns, looking out into a scenic mountainous desert.
7.  GREEN BEANS COFFEE IS ALMOST AS GOOD AS STARBUCKS....I USE 'ALMOST' KIND OF LOOSELY:  First of all, mad props to the folks at Green Beans.  I have deep respect for the service they provide...gourmet coffee in a combat environment.  If only they'd serve the seasonal Pumpkin Spice Latte....that'd be wonderful.
8. NORTHFACE, COLUMBIA, and OAKLEY GEAR IS STILL OVERPRICED:  Bagram's Disney PX sells name brands like Oakley, Northface, and Columbia....all brands that sell items at extreme markup because of the brand written or sewn onto said item.  I witnessed one of my Soldiers buy 2 pairs of Oakleys at around $300.  One of the pairs was exactly the same as the Army-issued glasses we all get for free, except "Oakley" was painted on the sides.  He then remarked to me that I was whipped, because he assumed my wife would not let me make the same type of purchase he did.  True, I have 3 other people to think about other than myself.  However, there is no way I'd pay that much money for sunglasses that I will lose or break within the next 3 months. I gots mo betta things to do wit my cash money.
9.  MANY ON BAGRAM ARE CLUELESS THAT DANGER EXISTS AND THERE IS A WAR GOING ON:  Sure, Bagram gets the occasional rockets that get shot down by high-tech transformer-like machines. However, compared to the rest of the country, Bagram's strip mall, Vegas atmosphere make deployment seem like a cakewalk.
10.  THE CLEANING PROCEDURES BY THE AFGHANS ARE A LITTLE GROSS:  The Afghans like to clean, but they do it in strange ways.  For example....I watched a group of cleaners come into a tent in which I was staying, filled with multiple bunk beds.  They poured bottles of drinking water on the plywood floors of the tent, swept the water and dirt on the floor making a nice thin mud layer across the tent, and then they proceeded to sweep the beds with the same broom.  Seriously.
All in all, I've enjoyed the fabulous life at Bagram, but looking forward to going to a more remote and austere place to get refocused on the next 6 months of this mission trip!

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